රිය අනතුරින් පසු මනෝකාය ඉහළ යනවා මම දැක්කා - නිල්මිණි තෙන්නකෝන්

¥ orefjda” fg,s kdgHfha §ma;s hkq furg fg,s kdgH  fma%laIlhkag f,fyisfhka wu;l fkdjk pß;hls' ks,añKs f;kakfldaka kï ckm%sh fg,s kdgH ks<sh fj; risl risldúhkaf.a wdorh Èkd fokakg iu;a jQ rx.khka w;ßka tho iqúfYaIS jQjla nj wuq;=fjka lsj hq;= ke;' Èhiq<sh" bisodis" iqiSud" l=udrhdfKks" fka;%dxc,S" ysre oyila hg" yekaoEj" .sßl=¿ wd§ ks¾udK /il wmQre rx.khka yryd weh h<s h<s;a rEmjdysks fma%laIlhkaf.a wjOdkh Èkd .;a;dh'

fudrgqfõ Wm; ,o f;kakfldaka m;srKf.a ks,añKs wOHdmkh ,enqfõ fudrgqfõ fõ,aia l=uß úoHd,fhks' wef.a mshd jQ mshodi f;kakfldaka uykqjr§o" uj jQ fidaud fckS n,xf.dv§o Wm; ,nd" újdy ùfuka miq fudrgqjg mÈxÑhg meñKshy' ;d;a;d fudrgqj k.r iNdfõ fiajfha kshq;=j isá wjêfha isgu l,djg;a" foaYmd,khg;a iïnkaOj isá whqre l=vd ks,añKsg u;lh'
isßudfjda nKavdrkdhl uy;añhf.a Y%S ,xld ksoyia mlaIfha l%shdldÍ m%n,hl= jQ mshd ueo fld<U yd fudrgqj hk wdikj, ixúOdk lghq;=j,g uQ,sl  ù we;' fudrgqfõ fuß,a m%kdkaÿ" úu,isß o ue,a" chiquk O¾unkaÿ" g%slais fukaäia wd§kaf.a ys;j;l= jQ “mshodi ifydaorhd” l,djg o m%sh lf<ah' m%Odk “ldksj,a” ixúOdhljrhl= jQ fyf;u ta i|yd Èjhsfka ckm%sh l,dlrejka iyNd.s lr .;af;ah'
“;d;a;d udj;a fï ldksj,a n,kak tlal .shd' mqxÑ ug u;lhs relauKs foaú" fcda;smd," ñ,agka" tï'tia' tajdfha .S; .dhkd lrkjd' ;d;a;df.a l,djg we;s we,au ;uhs  ug;a n,mdkak we;af;a' ;d;a;d fudrgqfõ uf.a jhfia <uhs tl;= lr, “tluq;= l%Svd iudch” lsh, tlla yo, taflka fjila kdgHhla ksIamdokh l<d' “rdcH ‍f,a” kï fï kdgHfha rpkh" fonia" ix.S;h"
wOHlaIKh fiaru ;d;a;f.' whshhs" uuhs" uf.a hd¿fjdhs rÛmE fï kdgHh fudrgqj k.r iNdj bÈßmsg we;s ysia bvfï fõÈld .; l<d' jhi wjqreÿ 12 muK oeßhlj isá uu fï kdgHfha rdcl=udßhf.a l=vd ld‍f,a pß;h rÛmEjd muKla fkdfjhs" wdrïNl mQcd kegqu;a bÈßm;a l<d'” ks,añKs ;u m%:u rx.kh .ek u;la lf<a ta whqßks'
iskud f,da,Skao jQ wef.a foudmsfhda m<uqj Ñ;%mg krUd Ñ;%mgh fyd| kï ks,añKso /f.k hdug mqreÿj isáhy' fudrgqfõ  tfuia iskudy‍f,a§ fufia “neoafoa.u” Ñ;%mgh kerUQ Èkfha jkdka;rfha hlaI rEm wvx.= o¾Ykhla oel ìhù" iskudy, fojk;a lrñka ye¾ãu ksid jQ weneoaÈhla wehg ;ju u;lh' iì;d fmf¾rd iy c.;a frdaydka rÛmE “iì;d” kï Ñ;%mgh kerUQ od weh tu k¿ ks<s hqj,g wdYla;j wuq;=u f,dalhlg msúi we;'
“fõ,aia l=uß úoHd,hg hdnoj ;snqKq fudrgqfõ gj¾ iskudy‍f,a bÈßmi ;snqKq oejeka; oekaùï mqjrefõ k¿ ks<shka foi uu fndfyda fõ,djla n,d bkakjd' we;eï úg mdf¾ hk ñksiaiq uf.a wefÛa yemafmkjd' ta;a ug .dKla keye' uu ta ld‍f,a iskudyf,ka bj; oud ;snQ fif,da,hsâ fk.áõ mg tl;= lrf.k f.or weú;a whsh;a tlal w÷re ;ekl fgdaÉ t<sfhka ì;a;shg t,a, lr,d n,,d f,dl= i;=gla ,enqjd'
“uu Ñ;%mghla neÆfjd;a myqfjksod úfõl ld,fha mka;sfha hd¿fjda tl;= lrf.k tafla l;dj fonia wdÈh rÛmd, fmkajkjd' fuys§ uu Ñ;%mgfha fkd;snqK fonia w;ska od,;a lshkjd' <uhs mqÿufhka" l=;=y,fhka n,ka bkakjd'  uu n,mq Ñ;%mghl wjidkh ÿllska fl<jr jkjd kï th i;=glska wjika jk wdldrhg;a" i;=áka fl<jr jk l;djla kï ÿllska wjidk jk f,i;a uu yo,d lshkjd' b;ska iuyrekaf.a weiaj, l½÷¿' we;eï <ufhla fo;=ka ojilska ud <Ûg weú;a fufyu lshkjd' “ks,añKs Thd lshmq úÈyg ‍fkfjhsfka ta Ñ;%mgfha l;dj bjr fjkafka”
“tfykx ta f.d,af,da miafia l;dj fjkia lrkak we;s' uu n,k fldg ;sín úÈyghs uu lsõfj“ uu tfyu lsh, weÛ fír .kakjd'
ks,añKs jvd;au m%sh l< k¿ ks<s hqj< jQfõ úch iy ud,skSh' miq l,l .dñ” yd fcda f.a úYsIag rÛmEïo weh w.h l<dh' weh mdi‍f,a§ ,eÊcdYS,S isiqúhl jQ w;r inflda,h ksid mdi,a fõÈldfõ rÛmEfõ ke;' ks,añks l%Svdj,go olaI;d oela jQ nj jeä fofkl= okafka ke;'  jd¾Isl u,, l%Svd W;aijj,§ h.=,sh" ÿr mekSu" Wi mekSu biõj,ska ks;ru weh ch.%yK ysñ lr.;a;dh'
“uu mqxÑ ld‍f,a b|,u isysk ueõfõ kegqï .=rejßhla ùughs' wfma mdi‍f,a kegqï b.ekajQfha jðrd uy;añhhs' wehf.a k¾;k ,S,djka udj jiÛhg m;a l<d' ta w;r mdi‍f,a ;+¾h jdol uKav,fha;a kdhsldj jQ uu .dhkhg yd jh,Ska jdokhg;a yelshdjla ;snQ ksid iqcd;d w;a;kdhl uy;añhf.ka ix.S;h bf.k .;a;d' ta w;r /ðks fp,ajkdh.ï uy;añhf.ka k¾;kh;a bf.k .;a;d'”
“fï yeu ldrKhl§u uf.a whshd ug fijKe,a, fuka ud <Ûu yeuúg isáhd' Tyqf.a ku È,sma f;kakfldaka' whshd fudrgqj k.r iNdfõ" wdKavq mlaIfha  kd.ßl uka;%Sjrfhla' wms fokakd kdgH n,kak fldÉpr wdi o lsõfjd;a mqxÑ ld‍f,a fudrgqj fn!oaO ukaÈrfha fõÈld .;jk iEu fyd| kdgHhlau fydfrka .syska neÆjd' wfma ;d;a;d jvd;au leu;s .S;h ;uhs úlag¾ .ehQ “ fyda mÆ jk fm;” .S;h' fï .S;hg ;d;a;d ug wmQre k¾;khla mqreÿ l<d' ;d;a;f. hd¿fjd f.or wdjdu “mqf;a wr iskaÿjg kg, fmkajkak” lsh, lshkjd' ta úÈyg kegqu bÈßm;a l< yeu j;djlu ug ;d;a;f.ka remsh,a myla ;E.s ,enqKd'”
Èkla ks,añKs we;=¿ mdi,a ñ;% iud.u mdi,a ks, we÷u msákau fudrgqfõ isg rdj;dj;a;g weúof.k tk w;r frdahs) iqukd hqj< rùkao% rkafoKsh iu. Tjqkaf.a ksjfia bÈßmsg isgf.k l;d lrñka isákq olakg ,eìK' .uk k;r fldg wdmiq yeÍ yels blaukska wi, ‍fmd;a idmamqjlg f.dia iure ‍fmd;a ñ,§ .;a fï msßi kej; ksji n,d hk úg tys úYd, úÿ,s nqnq¿ o,ajdf.k Ñ;%mghl rEm.; lsÍï isÿfjñka ;snqKs' tys .sh ñ;% iud.u úfõlS wjia:djl rùkao%" frdahs" iqukdf.a iure igyka ,nd .;ay' È. fldKavhla ysñ ks,añKs foi iqukd wjOdkfhka isg weh wi,g meñKshdh'
“Thd rÛmdkak leu;so@”
“Tõ”
“vdkaiska mq¿jkao@”
“álla mq¿jks”
“wms n,uqo vdkaia tlla lr,d'”
ks,añKs Bg tlÛ jQjdh' iqukdf.a ksjfiau fldgil ;snQ ief,daka  tlg ks,añKsj le|jdf.k f.dia wef.a kegqu n,d iEySulg m;a jQ iqukd wehj frdahs fj; le|jdf.k .shdh' m%:u j;djg Ñ;%mghl /ÛmEfï wyUq wjia:dj ks,añKsg Wod jQfha fï wdldrhgh' fï wjia:dj ,eìu .ek ks,añKsf.a mshd ;=< we;s jQfha buy;a i;=gls' frdahs ) iqukd fudrgqfõ u mÈxÑj yqka ksid ks,añksf.a uõmsfhdao ta hqj< flfrys úYajdih ;enQy' uq,au rx.kh i|yd wïud ;a iu.  .sh wehg ,enqfKa frdahs
wOHlaIKh l< “ys; fyd| fld,af,la” Ñ;%mgfha ,;d .hk iudc Yd,d .S;hlg  keàugh' tl, ñia Y%S ,xld f,i lsre¿ me<¢ rEm /ðksh;a" nkaÿ iurisxy;a" ks,añKs;a fï o¾Ykhg fmkS isáfhdah'
cd;sl rEmjdysksh wdrïN lsÍu ksñ;af;ka Oïu cdf.dv ksIamdokh l< “iir” kï uqo%d kdgHfha ks,añKs we;=¿ kegqï mka;sfha ñ;=ßhkag rÛmEug wjia:dj ,enqfKa Ñ;%d l=udß l¿fndaú, ñ;=ßh ksidh' ks,añKs fuys yxihl= f,i rÛmEjdh' fï uqo%d kdgHh rEmjdysksfhka úldYkh ù wjidkfha ks,añKs f;kakfldakaf.a ku kdudj,sfha ;sfnkq ÿgq mshd “uf.a ku f.kshkak fl,af,la bkakjdhs” i;=gq l÷¿ fy¿fõh' tfy;a ta jif¾u ;u mshd Ôú;fhka iuq .ekSu ks,añKsg oeßh fkdyels fYdalhla úh'
“uu tl ld,hla iqo¾Ysfha fiakl o is,ajd uy;df.a ne‍f,a kegqï mka;shlg .shd' ojila fg,s isfka lshk rEmjdysks ksYamdok wdh;kfhka msßila wfma ne‍f,a mka;shg wdjd' Tjqkag jqjukd jqfKa È. fldKavhla ;sfhk ;reKshla fjf<| oekaùula i|yd f;dard .kak'
t;fldg;a uu biafldaf, hkjd' udj fï i|yd f;dard f.k fg,s isfk wdh;khg tlal .shd' tla;rd mkd j¾.hla i|yd fjf<| oekaùulg ;uhs tod uu fmkS isáfha' fï oekaùu lf<a ã'ì' iqrksu, uy;d' Bg i;shlg miqj ug ,shqula wdjd' ã'ì' ksyd,aisxy kñka ;uhs th ,enqfKa' fg,s kdgHhla i|yd mÍlaIKhlg tkak lsh,d' uuhs wïuhs .shd' ug nhl=;a ;snqKd' uu fndre f,dl= lula ujd f.k we;=<g .shd' Wi uy; uy;a;fhla ysáhd' “ljqo ksyd,aisxy lshkafka@ lreKdlr,d udj thd .djg tlal hkak”' uu pKaähd jf.a lsõjd'
“Tfydu ‍fmdâvla jdä fj,d bkak mq;d' thd we;=f<a jevla' uu mKsjqfâ lshkakï'” Tyq iskdfiñka lsõjd'
ál fõ,djlska flfkla weú;a udj úYd, ldurhlg tlal .shd' wr uq,ska ysáh Wi uy; ;eke;a;du ;uhs ldurfha  jdä fj,d ysáfha' ‘ug ´kE ñiag¾ ksyd,aisxy yïnfjkak'’ uu wdmyq lsõjd'
‘whsfia uu ;uhs ksyd,aisxy’
uu wඬkak mgka .;a;d' uu ksyd,aisxy uy;a;hd oel,d ;snqfK kE' oek ysáfha;a kE' ug l;d lr.kak neß jqKd' ksyd,aisxy uy;a;hd ug lreKdfjka l;d lr, uf. we¾ä,a, keje;a;=jd'
 ‘;uqkakdkafia Èuq;= uq;= oel, ;sfhkjo@’
‘Tõ' i¾'''''' tal uf.a m%sh;u fg,s kdgHh'’
‘wms Èuq;= uq;=  fojeks fldgi lrkjd' ;uqkakdkafia leu;so foaúld ñysrdKsf.a ñ;=ßhla yeáhg rÛmdkak@’
‘w‍fmdhs Tõ i¾'’
“uf.a l,d Ôú;fha werUqu tfyuhs'” ks,añKs w;S; isoaêhla fy<s l<dh'  “fl<s uඬ,” Ñ;%mgfha rÛmEu fjkqfjka wehg tu jif¾ fyd|u kjl ks<shg ysñ ,laia )iriúh iïudkho ysñ úh'  
flfia fj;;a weh fma%laIlhskaf.a fkduo wjOdkhg yd wdorhg md;% jQfha fidauùr fiakdkdhlf.a ;sr rpkhla wkqj kd,ka fukaäia wOHlaIKh l< ‘¥ orefjda’ fg,skdgHh ksidh' “¥ orefjda” ys §ma;s fld;rï ckm%sh jqKdo lSfjd;a “ug  ta ojiaj, ljqre;a l;d lf<a “§ma;s” lsh,d' uf.a fyhd iaghs,a tl ^“§ma;s lÜ”& mjd ;reKshka w;r ckm%sh jqKd' wjdikdjlg Ñ;%mg i|yd ug ,enqKq pß; uf.a fmïj;d ksid w;ayßkak isÿ jqKd' uu tod uq,a ;ek ÿkafka wdorhghs' ta fjkqfjka uu ishÆ foa lem l<d'”
“uu Ôú;fha blauka ;SrK .;a;' ys;=jlaldr pß;hla' wo ta .ek uu miq;eú,s fjkjd' wïudg jvd fmïj;d ug f,dl= jqKd' uf.a wïud ;uhs ;d;a;d ñh.shdg miafi wmsj weia fol jf.a n,d.;af;a' uu tod .;af;a jerÈ ;SrK' oeka uu ys;kjd lsisu orefjla fouõmshkaf.a ys;a ßoúh hq;= kE lsh,d' uf.a ÿj ,enqKduhs wïuf. w.h ug  jvd;a oekqfKa' uf.a yÈis ;SrK ksid wïud fudk ;rï is;ska ÿla ú¢kak we;ao lsh,d ug f;areï .shd'”
“wo uu Ôú;h Èyd n,kafka WfmalaIdfjka' uu mqxÑ ld‍f,a b|,u yeÿfka wuq;= úÈylg' uu widOdrKhg úreoaO flfkla' uu ta fjkqfjka yeu úgu fmkS isáhd' fydr lï lsÍu" fndre lSu" ug
ms<sl=,a' tfyu <uhs tlal msßñ .eyekq fkdn,d uu .egqKd' .y.;a;d' fï .;s uf.a fyd|lao krllao okafka keye' fï jevj,ska uu mdvq ú|,d ;sfhkjd' uf.a fohla wkqka .;af;d;a udj fjõ,kjd' Bg miafia l<lsfrkjd' ;d;a;d uf.a fï  ovínr .;s .=Kj,g oeä f,i wjjdo lr,d ;sfhkjd'”
ks,añks mjikafka wo jkúg weh Bg jvd fnfyúka fjkia pß;hla njhs' “wo uu fï .;s .=Kj,ska yqÛla ÿrg ñÈ,d' uf.a jhi uqyql=rd h;au tajdfha yriqka nj ug jegyqKd' uu ks<shla f,i ´kE ;rï i,a,s foam< Wmhd .;a;d' kuq;a miq ld,fha ug fï ishÆ foaa wks;H nj oeäj oekqKd' wmsg yeu foau ‍fmdl=re msáka nod.kak nE' tfyu nodf.k ;shdf.k;a jevla kE' tfyu ;shd .;a;;a" wmsg whs;s foa muKhs wmg ;shd .kak mq¿jka' wmsg whs;s ke;s foa w;dßkak ´kE' ke;akï yeuodu wms ú|jkjd' uu wdi ú¢kak ñi ú|jkak ‍fkfjhs'”
óg jir lsysmhlg fmr weh uqyqK ÿka ìysiqKq ßh wk;=ro ks,añKsg lsis úgl wu;l fkdjk w;aoelSuls' “2006 jif¾ ud¾;= 04 fjksod ;uhs fï  ßh wk;=r jqfKa' ug ta fj,dfj kskao .syska ;snqfKa'  ksÈ urdf.k IQáx lr,   l=reKE., iskud y,l ;sr.; jqKq “wxc,sld” Ñ;%mgfha m%Odk wdrdê;hd f,i hk .uka' hlal, § wk;=r isÿ jqfKa' uu we;a;gu uereKd' uf.a ufkdaldh Wvg hkjd jf.a uu oelald' uu n,d.;a .uka ysáhd' wdfh;a my<g wdjd' uu fyd| isysfhka n,ka ysáhd' f,dl= ldka;drhla Èf.a uu ÿjkjd oelald' ug u.È  uf.a ÿj .ek lsishï pß;hla weú;a u;la l<d' ta mdr uu wdmyq úreoaO me;a;g Èõjd' tfyu ÿjk fldg ldka;df¾ b|, udj ìug jegqKd' ug isysh wdjd' ug oekqK wjqreÿ .dKla weúoaod lsh,d' ta;a uu miqj oek.;a;d ojia y;la hklx uu isys uQ¾Pdjl  b|,d ;sfhkafka'

ug isysh wdj .uka uq,skau  u;la jqfKa l=reKE., lrmq IQáx tlla' uuhs" md,s; is,ajhs" Wfoaks pkao%isßhs w;r .egqula tod rE.; jqfKa' uu ffjoHjßhla' md,s;g .ykak Wfoaks ‍fmd,ams;a;la .;a;d' ‍fmd,ams;s mdr jeÿfka uf.a weye .djg' weye .dj me,s,d ‍f,a wdjd' wjg lÜáh whsia ;sh,d ‍f,a keje;a;=jd' ug frday‍f,a§ isysh wdj .uka u;la jqfKa ‍fmd,ams;s mdr jeÿKq tl' uu ys;=fõ tu isoaêfhka frday,a .;jqKd lsh,d'”
“uf.a Ôú;h fírd .;af; rd.u frday‍f,a ffjoH ksõgka .=Kr;ak' uf.a Ôúf;a fírefKa ydialulska lsh, t;=ud lsõjd' ufkdaldh iïnkaO isoaêh .ek;a uu t;=ug lsõjd' m%isoaO ufkda ffjoHjrhl= jQ ^wm w;ßka úfhda jQ& ffjoH yßYapkao% ud .ek m¾fhaIKhl=;a l<d'”
ks,añKs lshkafka ;udg fuf,dj ysñ tlu jia;=j  ÈhKsh iafõ;d njh' weh oeka fodf<dia yeúßÈh' cd;Hka;r mdi,l bf.kqu ,nk weh tu úÿy‍f,au oyï mdi,go hhs' isxÿ lshkak" ,shkak" jdokh lrkak weh leue;sÆ'
“uu forK rEmjdysksfha ‘is;a .sukay,’ jevigyk jir 6la ;siafia lrkjd' fï jevigykg ug;a" ksIamdolg;a iqu;s iïudk ,enqKd' fï jevigykaj,g iïnkaO fjk" mSvdjg m;a l;=kag uu Woõ lrkjd' tajd m%isoaêhg lrk foaj,a ‍fkfjhs' fï ish,a, w;f¾ kqf.af.dv ieÆka tl;a  mj;ajd f.k hkjd'”
fï Èkj, úldYh jk iqo;a frdayKf.a ‘.sßl=<’ fg,s kdgHfha ks,añKs rÛmE pß;ho ldf.a;a wjOdkhg ,la jQjls' tu pß;h rÛmdoaÈ isÿ jQ rij;a isoaêhla .eko ks,añKs isysm;a l<dh'
 “.sßl=< fg,s kdgHfha ñkSfmÜáhl ueß, bkak o¾Ykhla lrkak ;snqKd' we;a;u lsõfjd;a uu tafl ysáfha leue;af;ka ‍fkfjhs' l;dfõ yeáhg mrK ld‍f,a ñkS fmÜáhla tal' ta uÈjg uf.a kyhg mq¿kq;a Tn,d' udj ñkS fmÜáfh ;shkak biair fjia .ekaùï Ys,amS iEï fmf¾rd we÷ï wekaÿjd' ñkS fmÜáfh ysáh §u  fïlawma l<d' ta fj,dfj ug ÿjj u;la fj,d uu wඬkak mgka .;a;d'
‘fï fudlo@ u<ñksh wඬkafka’ ljqfoda lshkjd weyqKd'
‘wfka iqo;a whsfha ug fïfla bkak nE’ uu iqo;a frdayKg lsõjd'
‘;j álhs' fï iSka tl ú;rhs'’
oeka iSka tl mgka .;a;d' kEfhda wඬkak mgka .;a;d' tl mdrgu ta yඬ kEiS .shd' uu weia jyf.k ysáfha' weia wer, ne,skakï fmÜáh jy,d' lrej,hs' ug la,dka;h jf.a' kdia mqඬqj, mq¿ka ysr lr,d' ljqo msßila fmÜáh Wiaidf.k hkjd oekqkd' uu ñkS fmÜáfha mshk .,j f.k t<shg mekakd' fï wjia:dj ug lsisod wu;l fjkafka kE' ug fjkafka uefrk jevuhs”' ks,añKs iskdfiñka lSjdh'